Paradise Lost EP


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A myriad of questions, immense feeling of hopelessness, melted into a boiling pot of angst and rage. FOREVER /ALWAYS aim to sweep you into a vast ocean of contemplation about life and injustice with its The Wave-influenced post-hardcore sound. Definitely worth to check if you listen to Touche Amore and La Dispute almost religiously.


released September 29, 2014

Produced by FOREVER / ALWAYS
Released by Sailboat Records
Recorded at The Box Studio by Erdo Djunianto
Mixed & Mastered by Erdo Djunianto

Vocals & Lyrics by Fadil McGee
Guitars, Bass, Art Direction & Design by Yogawerda Kessawa
Drums by Adrey C
Bass & Photos by Rama Florenza



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DIY label. Jakarta. Music for deaf ears. Hurdling power chords into the endless abyss of a sea nothingness.

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Track Name: Sea of Repeat
I remain, lost cause
In the sea of repeat
I look up, to the bottom
Fly down south, onto the next one

Cause i have faith in us, if we don’t self destruct to the bottom
Of false promises, you’re a false promiser, officer

Now before you go don’t forget
Which is to say, remember!
So many lines that you correct
So many clues that you collect

In our hearts
We were reminded of all the things that we agreed and
When we decide to keep this to ourselfs
We’d have a play in a garden of palette
Pass out, pass in
I decided, i would pretend to be alive

Peeking through keyhole
Looking for closure
You think youre playing sherlock, eat my dreadlock (aint you doc?)

Oh no you got no clue
Mississippi old klux!
Is getting thick but our mind is getting sick
Onto the conscious of being alone

Generations of cripples
Failed seekers
Who never really knew
Old mystic fallacy
At least someone
trust my trust
And now you’ve hurt my trust

Paradise Lost
Track Name: Ocean of Motion
Right, what i've learned from my mistakes
Is to hold un-intangible blithe
let me make it clear to you right

Right! What they’ve done to my past tense
Lurks behind those irrelevant minds
Lies lies lies they’re missing life
Standing behind those irrelevant eyes
Eyes, ice, dice, strikes
Tequilla shots with their tablecloth mites

How can i get back to reality when
Everything i need dissapoint me since
I walk the earth, for too long
Making mistakes as i walk along

These chest’s a freeway to every soul that has deprived from the disposal of time
These chest need a line of a positive mind and needs to be inserted in that brain cortex of yours

We live in an ocean of motion

We ride to shore
Without wanting more

Tonight is the night that i finally win free perceptions of my abstractions and everything that i should’ve done
We found our selfs drifted in being yen from the yin
Oh it's depressing, sitting here listening
Those people combining the wrong path of a path that your thumbs diligently scrolling
We should live life to the fullest
Dodging our psyche from the bullet
Bide our ties to abiding binding joy and neglect
I disrespect those who demand to be respected

She don't need me anymore
Now my heart it turns to stone
Track Name: Piece of Mind
Driving alone, in a place i call home
I preach my qualms to the choir, i preach my qualms to those who never see a sickening recipe piece of my heart
Does it hurts when you still move far from a place to a home
Or do you hurt yourself when you left the door?
Every step feels like more door
Lord of the ring i’d be tyson like bison
Light money up like the free mason
Or just forget the fact that i’ve lost you too, the same reason surpass what we’ve been through a lot of hard reasoning
Well, do you think that i helped create a resume?

And i once smoked shot gun through my sorrow
I see them crows hanging at the crowbar
I’m dancing on the floor, look at how people flow
Cause i’m an outlaw, got an outlaw chick, bumping 2pac on my outlaw
Shit i got shot
Track Name: Frames of Ignorance
one prayin’ i’m done playin\
last time was on a outro\
stuck in the house, need to get out more\
I’ve been stackin’ up like i’m fundraising\
most people in my position misconcepts and run a complex devotion\ exploring situations about mass that glides with gravity when the moment it starts making stars in it’ & makin moons in it’\
the moon pull tides and sprung seasons creating life inside the atmosphere\ making raw shit with these acid six billion years expanding\
the world as we know it getting astonishing, it’s like a snowball species living\
till i was birthed there my first year man i don’t know this place like ‘do we come from Him?’ \
backseat at junior high making pinpoints about a higher being?\
fuck that.\
is any god coming before i show up there & there’s no one there?\
These days we could talk on skype with aunt brenda without going there\
Backrub for my main thing, tony\
I’ve been stressed out\
Talking to them like back then i didnt trust them, i’m blessed now\
Talking to them like the act of killing made a million killings & didnt came out\
Tony told me “take a deep breath, you’re too worried about pulling the strings out. Read the scriptures if you have doubt, i have doubt, im chaind behind from the inside. Ive been telling myself that ive been wrong.”\

I should’ve set the bars\
I should’ve been on mars\
I should have let the hours that let me low\
But when i listen too much drake I said that i have been thinking about it too much\
“Dont think about it too much, its left for us”\
Dont think about it too much, it has left\
Its left for us.
Track Name: Enemies of Reason
Have you ever wandered why i left your faith of hate in shame?\
the secrets provoke lies and deceit and it has been there staying for while\
do you recall that before Christ things spice when we pick up all the lies and advice?\
"thou shalt not seek different vice"\
said lying priest to a mice\

we can't follow fools that make us ground rules\
with false scriptures and to lie without proof\

i shall self crucify\

no more secrets, the source of all creation is you

i have sacrificed i have fantasized my happiness in the corner of the streets waiting for the exodus\
does they set their hearts to the age of reason to stop judging the skin?

i self crucify my happiness
i self crucify my being alone
i self crucify my everything; peacefully, a place for me, my entity.\
being alone\
i self crucify, i stopped being alone.